A New Beginning

I think my blog is going to take a very interesting turn to.....uninteresting lol. I recently decided that I need to stop running from the force known as God and be obedient to His will. What's funny to me is that so many people characterize the Christian lifestyle as rigid, boring and cold. But I must say, it has been none of that for me. Every day is a new ride on the roller coaster of life as I battle with my carnal desires and try to take the higher ground. Who knew that the battle between spirit and flesh would be so epic?

Oh wait...God knew.

All the more reason for me to give the reins to Him.

So I've only been at it a few days and I've already backslid in a major way....and I may do it again. I'm struggling to let certain things go...and they are proving harder than I ever imagined. The bane to my spiritual existence? That 3-letter word...

S.E.X.

I wonder if God knew just how much of a sexual drive He was giving me when he decided to put my parts together. Well, of course He knew, but sometimes I wonder why? I am insatiable. I could do the "do" more than several times a day and still want more. What's up with that? And it doesn't help that I live with my ex, the father of my son. Somebody told me they call this "rollover d*ck." That may very well be the case. But that's not what I want to use it for. And yet....I find myself pulled down that spiral over and over again.

My motto: "No one said it would be easy." Damn straight.

Easy it definitely hasn't been, but I have to believe that with time, prayer and faith, eventually it will get easy. I see you in the distance, Easy Street. I really do....it's about a mile away from me. But metaphorically, I plan to be strolling down this mythical street some time in my near future. By the grace of God.